Do Over

Kat, Sarah, and I have collaborated to post a prompt-a-day in December.  Check the #Reverb12 page for prompts and and take a look at the main page for the basic instructions on the project.

December 13: Do-Over: Of the things that happened this year, if you had the chance to do X all over again, what would it be?

Of what I did this year, what would I do over if I could?

I say “I love you” a lot.  A lot – a lot.  But I would say it more.

I would’ve shown up to more things, instead of being too-cool-for-school.

I would’ve slept more, when and where I could’ve.

I’d have yelled less; laughed more; been more open to change and possibility; eaten more ice cream.

Regrets?

I have none.

I sent as many letters as I could.  I collected as many passport stamps as humanly possible; had some incredible meals, and spent time with wonderful friends — new friends; old friends; friends I thought I’d never see again.

I used more em-dashes and semi-colons and exclamation points than any one woman should use in a lifetime.  But I wouldn’t correct any of that.

I’m not sure I would do anything over, really, but I would say — shout! — I love you! more, maybe.

And I do.  I love you I love you I love you I love you and you and you and you, I do.

I do most things with a poker-face; I learned after years of having my heartbroken to keep everything close.  But given the chance, I’d tell the people I love how much I love them, and I’d say it a lot more — in ways that gave them what they needed.

I would also probably (maybe?) make more velveeta chilli dip.  And maybe even wear leopard print more often.  There was something that felt wickedly wrong and sexy but oh-so-right about that whole process-cheese-food and synthetic fabric affair.

But that can be our little secret.

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